Just a note.

Hi there,
Well, as much as my plan was to create a blog that I could write in every few days, That is obviously not happening. My life is not what it needs to be and more importantly neither am I.

A couple of times in my career as a channel, I have showed up to a scheduled Yaz Speaks, only to have Yaz tell me she would not be comming in that evening. She said to me. "No I will not be speaking through you tonight." "You are neither this nor that." She was refering to my transformational life I was living at that time, and how it was affecting me. I was going through a tough time at that juncture of my life, and really had forced myself to show up.

Well, I have tried to do that same thing today with the blog of Yaz Speaks. I know it has been a long time since I have written in it, so I forced myself to start typing away, and then realized it was me processing, not Yaz. So I guess I am neither this nor that once more.

I have often taught through my experiences in my life, always finding that others could learn from my views and see something in it for themselves. However I am usually getting close to the end of whatever I am working on in order to do that. I usually process pretty fast. That is not the case at this time.

I could whine and snivel about my road and the trouble I am having to navagate my way to........ I have no idea where. But that does not apeal to me at all! I want to be able to move on from this place of nothing, and yet everything all together. But it must not be time yet, because here I sit telling you this.

So what do I tell you?
I guess what I am learning.
maybe a list of what I am learning.

1.) I have no control and really never needed it.
2.) Love is the only way to aproach anything.
3.) Ease and flow have to start within me, and so does everything else.
4.) Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and so is everything else.
5.) Holding onto worry, fear, anger, and resentment gets me stuck!
6.) Letting go of all the unnecessary stuff is freeing!
7.) I didn't need all that stuff in the first place, and it is a lot less work not having to care for it.
8.) That I am having to remember what it is like to relax and enjoy free time.
9.) A problem in someone's life, does not create an emergency in mine.
10.) That children are filled with joy until someone takes it away from them.
11.) That I need to take good care of myself everyday.
12.) I need to build my dream exactly the way I want it to be.
13.) There is no life and no joy without a dream.
14.) I need to create love and happiness every day to keep fear out of my life.
15.) To appreciate and interact with my family because they are truly a gift from God.
16.) I can't change their path, I need to walk beside them in love, and get out of the way.
17.) That if you let it, life can take over and you get overwhelmed, so create what you want.
18.) Living with a 2 & 1/2 year old helps me to see as child again, and it is much clearer this time.